is it too late?

Its already 00:15 , and i am starting to write a blog.
i dont know why i am writing ( as no body is going to read it except me).

is a long time when i want to sit down and pen all what i feel.

But not possible.... as always i am afraid of comprehensive.

the main topic that is going on my head 24x7 these days
what am i doing?
is a right thing?
am i doing any thing wrong?


i dont know the answer of any question
but only thing i know is I AM LOSSING SOMEONE

but she is also not someone in my life
she is the one.

i like her company.
i like spending time with her.
i like the she love me.

then why i am not trying my best..........


is it because of the few thing which i dont like about her.
mainly her insecure felling that she has....


or is it her family.............which is driving me crazy.


I seriously don't know.

my family is waiting for answer from my side.
whats going on between us
is her father ready
what is it that is making her father disagree

and many other unanswered questions ....which he want to ask

but he don;t ask me as he feels i get irritate answering all those.


Papa i dont know what to answer.

it is almost decided that we will not be continuing any further.
But i dont know how to react,....
i dont know how to tell you....


i dont know is there any thing left...

i dont know whether i can do anything to save us.......

or is it too late........


i think i need to decide my priorities...
i think i need to decide what i like the most
i think i need to decide what is the most important for me...

but can i , is my next question..


At last of whole discussion i want to pray God to help me..
as always i am not in a condition to decide...

or is it too late...