should i thank for what i have,, or should i complain what i lost

pata nahi .. but sach bolo to chubta zaroor hai...
itna kuch paya hai..likin sayad bahut kuch kho bhi diya,,

kab tak muskurata rahuga bewajjh...

kab tak dukhi hota rahuga sirf ek reason pe..

i need to search something..
i need to do something ,..


i think i should get isolated... thats the best part...
kisi se kuch faltu nahi .. kisi se kuch bakwass nahi ..
bas aaye aur chale gaye...
kaam kiya aur khush...


maine janta hu yeh aasan nahi hai...
par day end pe dhuki hone se badiya hai..yahi kar le...

thak gaya hu sach bolu to..
sayad mujhe yeh nahi pata.. mujhe khusi kis cheez se milegi,..
sab apni dunaiya maine khush hai...

problems never hurt you from one directions..

i knw its difficult...

u say .. ITS JUST A CRUSH...
nice yaar...
khas tum samjh pati.. but its good thats its just a crush for you.. otherwise u would have hurt yourself..
for me.. i have started it..
i created such a scenerio in front of my friend that it looked like she introduced her to me...
but the truth is I made her to do that...

anyways...

i got the point... sometimes.. u should except wht otherperson think abt u and acept it open heartedly...

koi na...
yaad rakh... jo kiya appne liye kiya.. nahi hua to koi baat nahi...tujeh achi lagti thi na..bas itna hi kaphi hai usse maaf karne ke liye...
:)

sayad bhool to na pau itni jaldi
phir bhi theek hai,,,

haan haan aur galiya kha liyo phir bhool jana...

jahil kahi ka,...


anyways,.. the other best thing that could have happened to me was..its being said.that...trainee is better thann me...
koi na,..

its part of life...
dont worry u wont get less than 2
:)

fuck off....

somthing bothering me..

i am not any school going child..i knw that..

from the past 2days... somthing is paining inside..

for the first time... kisi ne itni insult kari phir bhi... mann nahi mann raha...


par uske liye kuch bhi..

I gained the faith in destiny by loosing someone special

ya seriously...

nothing more to say...

would like to thank a sweet friend of mine who tried a lot that me and her are together,,
but
it was destiny...
few things i felt bad...

she had given me enough reason ..
then why she called me back and told me one more...
its ok...

i felt little bit insulted when she said..alltht...


bw i should nt have felt bad... you have also done with many..
u have ignored many girls.
and u have also said no..

this time when somebody did directly u should not have felt it bad...
its a part of life...


agreeed....

bt i didnt do in tht sense...

ab chup bhi kar,,.

bahut ho gaya,,,

though she again called in the night... and just every thing is fine na...
though ig it would nt have been she would have been ....xyz..

its fine...


chalo ab tyar hote hai office ke liye..
need to start a new day...

:(

lost

today i could say was the D day..

and to shorten it up i could directly say .. our one sided relationship was crushed like anything...

it could not have been worst.. i could also add to this..

sayad koi aur hota to maine itna sunta bhi nahi..
pata nahi , where i had lost my so call esteem and all that...


she didnt do right .. she said too much.. and that included ... aapka screew dhila hai.. and all that..

if am not mistaken.... it was...

leave it.... or as she says...chuck it..

today i even cannot complain to God about it...

I have decided to go against destiny.. he has never supported me for doing that...

might be i was over confident with my ...

at last i can say.. i had made an item of joke of myself..

on serious note .. i wont be.. doing that again ever....


likin sayad ab to ...these words actually dont matter..
i always think that ....

i wont be doing anything..

its nothing to be nice in this world....

kya farak padta hai..ki koi ladka kaisa hai...
kya khata hai
kya piita hai..

all that matter is which caste he/she is...
all that matter is how much he has at month end..
all that matter is how much attitude u carry..

i lost in every think...
aand the stupidity was .. even i know i lost.. i keep on trying it on again and again..
again and then again,,,
and this does not end over here..


i knw..

leave saurabh...
please leave it...

actually why should i be feeling bad...
as u always say... if you have decided something.. u should stand brave to let the waves hit you back,.,,.

and if you can't , dont even dare to stand

every thing is a mixture

every thing was going smmooth.. i was having a good time.. but i plyed a small prank and it hitted me very badly...

not in a mood to explain waht happens and how it happens..

but i want her and thats i think she doesnt like...

i tried my best,,or should say i am trying my best...

but

kuch nahi... i would keep trying ..kitna bhi bura maane wo...

i knw i have decided against my destiny...


but i would go for it..


"i am behaving like small child with a big crush"
okes theek hai.. bolo.. hai..
ab kya karna hai..

nahi saurabh gussa nahi kare..
u need to make her understand..whats there ..and wht u want..

might be i am hoping agaianst hope... but its fine...

maine kuch nahi kaha usse...
why i would be faking..
do u think ..i am that kind of guy,.

i have no intension to proof u wht kind i am made up of...
but i wont lie to you dear..
ask me anytime ..anything..


chodo...lets see.. whts there for me ..
waise bhi ..
kuch nahi.. leave it...

i think.. it really does not matter..

it not a very long time we started talking...
but we are not having any think ...

atleast i am lossing the eagerness to talk...

i dont know why..
might i am looking for something special..
or might be expecting a lot in the last few days ..thats why getting hurt...

simply that i am not understanding ...

leave it..

few more days.. i will try..
but i still remember those words .. when she said..

aapko bura to lagta hai ..pa sachai yahi hai.. mujhe kya fara padta hai..

straight forward vs hard words...

after we had a chat in the wind tunnel..
we had small chats...
one day i messaged in the morning

"GM.. suno.. if possible join us for the lunch .. we would be having kadi chawal"

she joined us fo the lunch..
i was difficult for me as i am not myself in front of her..

anyways..
she sweet said.. "its nice".
Thanks was my answer..thats all we had chat on that day...


another day passed..

it was friday afternoon i decided that now i would be totally following her..

i called after lunch.. and ask to spare some time if free...
she came basement to meet me.. but this time she was along with her friend..

though i little bit awkward.. but was fine with me...
we had some lovely chat.. and came to conclusion that.. people from Art of living are also human beings... :) and also love watching movies..

anyways suddenly her friend said they should leave and they did..


in the evening... shekhar was here..
after some gr8 cookkingggg... i called her.. (10:30..approx)..

and we continue,, to chat..

office..
hobbies,.(though i dont have any... i recently came to know duing call)..
and all that ...
she also toold me that.. its quite evident that i get conciuos when she is around..
(ya i agree openly)..
she also told me during the lunch on that day i looked every where except for her.. to be specific..i look left..right.. down ..up above her head.. but.."..
and at her PG she and her roommate ..made a huge laugh abt it..

any ways its fine..

also..
her friend who accompnied her during evening told her.."see that guy really like us..its quite evident from his eyes".. she replied sweetly... "i know that dear, that he likes me...".



finally as always some serious stuff..
"saurabh, do u really think so we should talk like this on regular basis"..

do u have any issues with it... i have decided some thing and i want both of us to give some time.. thats how i feel ..if u r not upto....then i can force u.. but..

see...the thing is that.. mujhe kya farak padta hai....
but one day i would marry a guy chosen by my family .. and by that i dont want to hurt u...

(mujhe kya farak padta hai... they are really hard word... but she straight forward.. its fine..)

ya ok but atleast on that day u will compare me with him and would decide..

(so stupid of me.. i need to wait till that to make her reliase...stupid of u saurabh)..

ya but fir bhi saurabh ..i want to make it very clear.. its nothing from my side..
and its ok we talk .. but mujhe sach maine kuch farak nahi padta,,,
(again..these are hard,,does it really not matter to her.. anyways,...she is very straight forward.. buts its fin.,..)

fir bhi chalo maine fir bhi aapko call karuga..if u wish and feel comfertable u can talk..
at least i have decide some thing and i want to follow it/...less is left for destiny...
atleast i want to follow somehting..

saurabh u need to understand... aap khayali pulao.. bana rakha hai..aur app...

(nnow its done.. actuallly they were hard...)

ok.. fine.. chalo acha... ab sote hai gud nite..

nahi ab aap phone nahi rakhoge...i am sorry.. i dont meant it...

1 min silencee..

its fine..

nahi i am really sorry..

ok dear its fine,.. we will talk later...

no i really mean it... i am sorry..

ok chalo gud nite

gud nite...

though it was followed by a sweet sorry messaage..
then i called her and ask her to sleep and not to worry she again sweetly replied..

arre neend to aa jayegi uski cinta nahi karo aap..,,. mujhe to bed pe latete hi need aa jaati..

ok.. i though u were little bit distured after the last conversation so though of giving u call and ask to sleep tension les..:)))


any that long serious conversation...
it hurt me....
any ways,,, was it a straight forwad attitude or some thing else..
i knw she is sweet but is she...
or she mean something.. and say something else...

jo bhi hai..
i would keep trying..
might be...

though she keep on hitting me... if she is not really interested and u r making her to do so... is it right...
yadi wo tujhse pyar nahi karti to.. kyu... apne familly se ladd kar yeh kar raaha hai,,
only point u gave in the starting was she is sweet and she likes u... but do she really like u/..?/

shekhar said to check this out...
there is very small difference between straight forward,, or have hard words to hit some one..

u are not liking some one..being at home...
and u says.. u leave now,, as i am not liking u...

its is not straught forward,, its ill mannared....


jo bhi...
as of now.,.. i want to try.. though.. i am lacking that spirits,,
because she is not showing me any interest...
and might be she is correct...
"usse kya farak padta hai..." ............ :(((

finally we had a chat..

in the evening i was quite disappointed with the fact that.. nothing is happening..

so i finaallly decided to call her up and ask for some time..
my main objective was to clear my point of view...and see if its of any hope..

i called her.. she said she is busy but would calll soon...

for a change as committed she gave me a call...
and asked me if i am free can join in the wind tunnel..

i was on my way for a meeting.. but could nt say a no..(no prize for guessing),..

we then had a chat..

its was quite ok type nothing great nothing bad..
but i put my point..
she also did..

along with it we talk about some stupit PL's and their job..
but nothing special..

the only think she wants time...
that i dont have ,.. even if buy some from my destiny...
she wont be cozy untill she has an interest of chatting/meeting with me up..

not lets see howz it goes...

but the only think bothering me is that,'have i done any think wrong... '

i hope this question dont come up in latter stage..

I just want her smile for life long..

going against it..

finall i decided to go against what i have decided earlier...
anyways...

this is what i thought to drop by
but was not possible..

Hi,

I just called u up to say that i am quite upset with what all is going on these day with me..
I tried to forget but its not possible for me..
and finally I decided that i would go against my destiny ..
though i know its quite risky.. but want to take it.. because i am also not happy the other way round.

I totally agree to your point that I am going too fast and we should just start beign friend and smooth process should go on..

The problem is i haven't thought like that, I want to give u and myself enough time to decide what our fate. But I dont know what happens in last two days with you. i found a lot difference between the one and last day..

Anyways just in simple words,i want to tell u that, 'I like you' and want to make it very clear that I am proceeding in the same direction.


I dont know what to say but this what i have as of now..
I want you to think and do respond..
Just remember one think you can trust me and i wont be lying at all at any moment of time..
And if at all any such scenerio would hit me i would inform u well ahead...

Regards,



waitied for something to happen on its own..

i lost my wish to my destiny..

the time has finished there no chances that I would be getting a call now..
i wont mind saying that i am disheartened.. totally..

she was sweet ... sry, I mean she is sweet but I think i am not upto it..

whatever be the reason..
I quit...

there would be very less posibility that i would be turning back..

But seriously want to ask my destiny what the reason behind this ..and why ...
leave it...

I still believe..(sry, thinks) whatever happens for its own good....

destiny

today she is back from her hometown..
nothing changed... I was waiting for some call or xyz... but nothing happened..

I cant do like anyother boy.. ki piche pad jaate hai...
hamesha call sms and all that..

i need to wait for some signal.. to proceed further..

and i was missing that...
she is too straight.... waise sach bolo to itna nahi hona chahiye..

koi na...

finally during lunch she crossed me..
she float a smile and same did I.

nothing else..

fianlly after a huge discussion with my friends..
I called her..

Hi ***
Hi...

Had your lunch..
yes..

Have u gone back upstair..
no.. i am just walking in the coridors with my friends..

Okes, was just asking so howsz.... by the way.. if you r busy then we can talk later...

yes actually with friends would call later..bye..
bye..


ssame response..
yaar itna nahi..this is actuallly a little more..
now there can only be following reasons..

> ignoring me..
>attitude..
>taking her sweet time to adjust..

for the first 2 reason i think i should stop trying..
and for the last whoes possibility is quite less.ss.s... i should keep trying..

but for that u should have that signal ..which is missing like anything..
i have started feeling..that she is not interested..
though could not believe it as I dont find any specific reason in previous 3-4 days..which can lead to this scenerio.

Anyways..
as discussed..
I have left for destiny...
If she dont call even today..
then i think we should call it an ...

she is really sweet..
and her smile...can do anything or made me to do anythink...

but ....

I pray.. i got a call today.. otherwise.. its destiny...
please God...
please...

new,,,

its a long time... and seriously along time when i am to pen down somthing just to take that out...

I dont now what is happening with me...
but something good is happening thats all I know till know..

I got transfered to Noida... I dont like it...the new place.. the new people..
Noida is stupid place..where i felt everybody just want to be at big bazar to buy stuff in GIP..

anyways who the helll cares.. I dont like that...and i am not here to write anything abt bigbazar..

I got a nice roommate... who is gud as an over alll flat mate is consider..
thanks to God.. he made it easy to find..one..

after few days.. I got promopted to ITA..
is a huge change...in life..
to be an ITA in 3 years in TCS is remarkable and seriously it is...

though i still found something was missing in life...
i could nt understand what was actually missing...
i got my landmark which i set on joining the company..

bu what nexxt..

noida was proving to be a good place for me...

it started off well..
people like the work i was delivering...
and i was acknowledged...

but still something was missing...

was something special was there in Noida 2 that i was made to shift to noida..


I dont know..
i keep on wondering why...

my teammate was okes types.. as it was a mixture of gud..ok..and bad..

Neha became a friend of mine...
and introduced me to a friend of her.. Stuti..

and later in the evening give an idea to think abt it..

i was already in love with the sweet smile she carry along with her...
i found the offer quite impressive when they told abt her in detail..

then I keep Neha bugging to make me see her..
but Stuti was not interesed...she want to get away from the situation..
and dont waant to indulge in any..knoe what

Neha and one of her other friends..put a condition for me..
they ask me to loose..4 kg in a month and then they will ask her to meet me..

i did every thing,,
was on sprouts..and fruits totally to meet the target,,
though target was not easy.. but my dedication made it look physically easy.. ;)


finally i was informed that i should try and not let her go like this..

but i could nt still make efforts to start tallking..




the issue was not about courage only... but also about caste...
she was sinha...the only caste my family wwas bothered most..

anyways I went to family and was finally able to convience them..
i still dont knw why i did that but ya her smile made me do so..

but the things were nt going as smooth as they should have been...

she likes me i knw... but thats nt enough for a girl to be in...


anyways..finally the day was there,,, i made it and started the intro...

she was too shy or act to do so ;)
anyways.. with too much pressure we started off...

she was on the way to her hometown...

I dont know where we are heading..buts I was not that much comfertable with her as of now..
or i think so.. she is ignoring me..

what ever be the case.. i just pray ki yeh jaldi clear ho jaye...
mujhe nahi pata wo kya chahti hai..

bt i feel its very thin line .. jab aap kisi ke liye try karte ho ..ya wo soche ki..aap uske piche pade ho..

Anyways,, every body talk about patience.. and i think that the worst thing and i dont have any idea about it,..

just wait and watch, what is coming my way,,
:)

a sweet tweeet

Har taraf shor ussi naam ka hai duniya mein
koi uss ko jo pukaaray, tto pukaaray kaisay
- Javed aktar sahab..

enemy friends can be your friends, so choose either one....

I dont know...
Kuch nahi
bas jo bhi ho raha hai
acha hi ho raha hai..

jo bhi hoga acha hi hoga...



But sayad ab mmaine toot gaya hu...
bahut hass liya ,. bahut ro liya...
ab sayad kuch nahi...

lonely... be practical...

Sach maine ,.. sayad maine kisi ka bahut bura kiya hoga,...
aaj bahut buri tarah feel kar raha hu.. akele pan ka...

kuch to hu.. aur kuch kara diya gaya hu...

mujhe alag ho jana chaiye...
sab se...
mujhe a certain distance bana lena chahiye,,,
maine yeh bhi nahi kar sakta hu...

meri himat nahi hai
i know

maine ek aisa prani hu... jo baar ek hi cheez se hurt hota hu,.. aur phir wohi karta hu...

maine wo hu jo.. kisi dusare ki galati se kya.../
apni galti se bhi nahi seekh paate hai...


anyways....
aaj maine yeh likh raha hu
aur mujhe pata hai.. kal fir se yahi likhuga,,,,,
2 din dhukhi ahuga,,, phir.... same galti karne ke liye tayar dubara,...


aaaj bahut gussa aa raha hai,,,
itna ki sayad maine apne aap ko chot pahucha lu...

aur kyu nahi...

ya to God test kar raha hai... ya... mere kiye ki saaza de raha hai...


sach maine , sach bol raha hu
thak gaya hu,,,.. kasam se... maaf kar do... please......

i dont know what i have done....
but... aise mere saath nahi hona chahiye......
eek galti batao....
ekk pleasee......
apat.... maine uski baat nahi suni break up ke time...
maine jaldi move on kar gaya...

ya maine .... usse ignoroe kar diya...

kya wo aruri nahi tha..
kya wo ... time ki demand nahi thi...
kya ....
please boliyue na... maine koi galat kiya,.,..


lets leave.... it... aaj ... maine akela hu... aur mujhe akele hi sahan karna hai....

likin yadi possible ho to please .. yeh situation jaldi sahi kar do.....

nahi .. aap jo bhi karna meri bhalai ke liye karna...

jo bhi acha ho...
but please bhagwan jaldi karna nahi to ...
bikar jauga,,,,
ab himat jawab de rahi... roz ek hi cheez ke liye apne aap ko saaza deta hu..

trying to be perfect....

tryng ki saurabh jaan bhugh ke galat nahi kar sakta ..

anyways.,,,,

likin aap se maine baad maine yahi boluga.... maine kabhi ko chot nahi di...

but Bhagwan ab maine act nahi kar pauga...
sayad...

ho sake to mujhe maaf kar dena....
ab maine auro ki khusi apne aap ko aur nahi effort maar sakta....

mujhe kisi se koi matlab nahi
lets be practical.. office maine koi dost nahi....
kaha hai na ,... be praxticall.......
practicall.......
Bhagwan ji maine sach maine bahut ...................................

please giv me courage, patience and strength........

and if i have done something wrong on the way please forgive me...

but i have changed,,,,,,
i have chaged a lot...

wo sauabh nahi raha ...jisse apne aap se pyar tha....

its ok to forgive someone...

kabhi yadi kisi pe bahhut gussa aaye ... uski galti maaff karne laayak na ho ... to yaad rakhna... ki u also make mistakes....

and remember a famous dialogue from Paaaa.... moviee..

aap galti karke hurt karte ho..
likin
jo galti karta hai..wo sehan kane wale se jayada hurt hota hai...


kal jo hua... uske ..tumhare best friend se jayada tumhari situation ki galti hai...
and so everything is fine...
and do remember this will pass too...

nice

Everyone wants to be happy , Nobody wants to be in pain... But you can't have a rainbow without any rain

i cant

i cant do it.. iske liye
but sometimes somebody haappnies is more valuable than yours......


sach maine bahut feel hui yeh cheez....
likin sayad ... maine kkhud hi...


same saying still hold gud
"Jo bhi hogha mere ache ke liye hi hoga"

same situation

Yesterday, was a gr8 day for me.. atleast I felt so...

just want to thank her.. for the pain she took all the way to be here....


But the same situation I am again... what next...???/


The same answer i have... should not worry a lot... Bhagwan jo bhi karega acha hi karega...

but i wish her life to be smooth... and please God give whtever is good for her....
I would be really nice if its the same that she wish,,, but I would like to see her happy at end...
So please plan for her... almighty... because.. u r the best one to decide.. whtt is good for her and wht is not...



apart from this i was just wondering why every time I start expecting... i start thinking now next wht??


but maine kal ki chinta karke aaj kyu karab kar raha hu...
kyuki maine isaa hi hu....
God made me.. with lot.. social contents.. give ability to talk to people of any age group... give me reponsible nature.... but also.. gave a emotional part of mine...
first of all I want to thank Him for wht He has given to me.. because... majority times ..not majority .. everytime it has favoured me a lot...

so now the think ... to sit and cry with the emotional part .. i need to make of it.....

but why ... i need to be one.. that i am...


to theek hai... na... jeeta reh isse hi... tensions le ke soch ke ki kya hoga aaage....
kisi ne kuch kaha.. khud pareshan hota... aur yaha pe aaajata hai...apna sa muhh le ke....



please help me....

we wish we could.... you only need to make yourself strong...... i feel you have started straining yourself....

yups my head is paining now... i should take a leave.. i have a hectic day ahead.... (thats a different hing that i want to sit and relax).....



sit and relax.. and think.... kuch nnahi hoga tera.... and you should thank// for the lovly day you had yeaterday... close you eyes.. and leave to start a new.. day... and as you say .. JO bhi hoga ache ke liye hoga... to tension kyu le raha ahi................ everything will be fine soon......


thanks ... thanks atleast for showing me some good dreams... inn future.....

you are toooo passimistic........ tujhe to yeh bhi nahi pata ki tujhe kya chaiye...

THANKS

somebody tied my hands...
but i just want to say thnaks for been there...

yeh i was with my good friend and his girl.
it look like they both are made for each other..
want to pray for both of them...

and want to see them getting married...

please GOD bless them ..
please ............

just come across a saying...
though not stand in mmy case as of now..
but liked that.,...

Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option

what to wrote .. as always on same situaltion... alot say.. bt don't know from where to start ..
and what to write...


why i feel bad... when someone say that they are engaged to someone.....
why you feel awkward .... specially when u dont feel anything like bf/gf for the other....(atleast till now)

you need to respect your relation as friends...

but i doo... seriously..... but the issue is that when i am made to realize that other is engaged somewhere always....

but am I trying... please i like to talk to the one .. i have not think like that till now atleast...

but beta... you know and you only say that friendship cant be there between a girl and a boy


I say but i have always made it wrong.... friendship is possible betwen a girl and a boy....

ok you want to discuss .. the scenario ...

know what you want to say... there are too many constraints if you want to have..

these days you are not giving a tough fight.. you loose easily...

i dont have the strength to fight.. not on this topic... i want a sweet friend that is of my type...
the one who cares.. the one... who listen to me... the one you share everything with me... the one who shows confidence... in me..... the one who came up and ask for his/her rights.... the one whom i can trust and the one.....


bas bas list itni badi hai ki puri nahi hone wali.. you leave dear... issa kabhi nahi hota.. aur na hone wala hai... in otherwords you are asking for you better half... hehehehehe

ssss not at all....... i want a ffriend.... ladka bhi ho sakta hai.....

ladka ho ya ladki.... gay hai kya.....


eekele reh ke dekho tab pata chalega...... waise maise dost ki baat kar raha tha... yeh gay kaaha se aa gaya,,
u feel someone missing............

but beta probs samjhne ki kosis karo,,,,, har koi aaapki tarah open minded nahi hota... the girl whom you may be talking to... his bf wont feel gud abt it... this is real fact..


aaap bhi yahi bologe.. aapko to paata hai.. kuch nahi hai issa....

maine uska bf bola.....

yeh kaisi duniya hai... but haan saayad yeh sahi hai...
likin ... chalo .. choroo.....

beta kabhi bhi aaj tak tujhe yeh laga ki tere saath kuch galat hua hai life maine...
ultimatelyy..
bas thoda patience ki zarurat hai...


hhaan saayad sahi keh rahe ho....okes maine kosis karuga .. cross nahi karu..
but promise u will bring something new in my life...
please please please please please please please.


okes okes... yahi boluga "jo bhhi hoga acha hi hoga... aur jo ho raha hai ache ke liye ho raha hai"

boundries...

my dear saurabh... just remember your boundries... aaap kabhi galti se bhi kisi ka beech maine to nahi aa rahe.....

patience is the key to success

from where i can have that....

jst read this

Mostly used alphabet 'A' does not appear in the spelling of 1 to 999 and appears for the first time in 1000 & continues ... Moral of the Story: Success needs Patience.

:)

aaj sach maine yeh pehli baar nahi ho raha ..

but i am lost somewhere...
God please help me....

?????????????

Aaj phir se mood off...
i dont know the reason as always..

might be ki maine jaana nahi chahta........
sab kuch dikhte hue bhi cheezo ko ignore kar raha hu...

ya phir .. soch raha hu... ki kuch dinno baad sab kuch sahi ho jayega.."all is well"....

mujhe aaj tak yeh samjh nahi aaya.. jab cheeze aapke hisab se nahi ja rahi ho to .. kya karna chahiye..

leave it because... its not for you......

or..

this is loosser attitude...you should keep trying till things change your way round,,,

but in this ... few things are there...........

it should be very clear in one's mind that "one does not get all think he wish" ........... should i except this fact????
also... one should know for what he/she is trying for....
is what he/she want..is good for him or not........


waise yeh cheeze uppar wal pe chor dini chahiye...
jo kismat maine hoga mil jayega

yeh kismat ................................ pata nahi hoti hi hai ya nahi...


waise yadi jindagi maine khush rehna hai.. to soch lo....... u will get wht u deserve....


nahi to puri zindagi ek target set karke uske piche bhagte raho.....

ek set karo ek achieve.. karo../...........


seriously .. i don't know what i want... and is it good for me............


i want a roommate..
i want a rented home with parking space.....
i want a car..
i want a land...
i want to see my father happy..
i want to be five pointer...
i want to travel onsite....
i want power......
i want someone in my life.....

someone can be not specifically gf.. type.... ek sacha dost chaiye....(sach bolo to pata nahi!!!!!!!!!!)

mujhe khud nahi pata mujhe kya kya chaiye,,,
to uss uppar wale ko kya dosh du....

kabhi kabhi to lagta hai... saali kismat hi karab hai... :))))

chalo ab jayada sochna nahi chaiye,..

khuki sochne se kuch nahi milta ...
sach maine kuch nahi...
but maine kya karu.............................................................................

sayad ab uppar wala hi kuch karege...................
maine to kuch nahi kar sakta..... wo bolte hai.. jo hota hai ache ki liye hi hota hai....

i know that much... ki mere saath bhagwan hai... and a special blessing from someone..
who must be looking from above ..
bahut pyar karti thi mujhe.....wo... sach kaha hai,,, apno ki yaad akelepan aur musibat maine hi aati hai...
and someplaces are never fulfilled by anyone.......

miss you mom...

kaha se suru kiya tha kaha pahuch gaya,,,
lets wait for sometime and see how it goes....

(but next question then will be how much time??????????????????)