lost

today i could say was the D day..

and to shorten it up i could directly say .. our one sided relationship was crushed like anything...

it could not have been worst.. i could also add to this..

sayad koi aur hota to maine itna sunta bhi nahi..
pata nahi , where i had lost my so call esteem and all that...


she didnt do right .. she said too much.. and that included ... aapka screew dhila hai.. and all that..

if am not mistaken.... it was...

leave it.... or as she says...chuck it..

today i even cannot complain to God about it...

I have decided to go against destiny.. he has never supported me for doing that...

might be i was over confident with my ...

at last i can say.. i had made an item of joke of myself..

on serious note .. i wont be.. doing that again ever....


likin sayad ab to ...these words actually dont matter..
i always think that ....

i wont be doing anything..

its nothing to be nice in this world....

kya farak padta hai..ki koi ladka kaisa hai...
kya khata hai
kya piita hai..

all that matter is which caste he/she is...
all that matter is how much he has at month end..
all that matter is how much attitude u carry..

i lost in every think...
aand the stupidity was .. even i know i lost.. i keep on trying it on again and again..
again and then again,,,
and this does not end over here..


i knw..

leave saurabh...
please leave it...

actually why should i be feeling bad...
as u always say... if you have decided something.. u should stand brave to let the waves hit you back,.,,.

and if you can't , dont even dare to stand