should i thank for what i have,, or should i complain what i lost

pata nahi .. but sach bolo to chubta zaroor hai...
itna kuch paya hai..likin sayad bahut kuch kho bhi diya,,

kab tak muskurata rahuga bewajjh...

kab tak dukhi hota rahuga sirf ek reason pe..

i need to search something..
i need to do something ,..


i think i should get isolated... thats the best part...
kisi se kuch faltu nahi .. kisi se kuch bakwass nahi ..
bas aaye aur chale gaye...
kaam kiya aur khush...


maine janta hu yeh aasan nahi hai...
par day end pe dhuki hone se badiya hai..yahi kar le...

thak gaya hu sach bolu to..
sayad mujhe yeh nahi pata.. mujhe khusi kis cheez se milegi,..
sab apni dunaiya maine khush hai...

problems never hurt you from one directions..

i knw its difficult...

u say .. ITS JUST A CRUSH...
nice yaar...
khas tum samjh pati.. but its good thats its just a crush for you.. otherwise u would have hurt yourself..
for me.. i have started it..
i created such a scenerio in front of my friend that it looked like she introduced her to me...
but the truth is I made her to do that...

anyways...

i got the point... sometimes.. u should except wht otherperson think abt u and acept it open heartedly...

koi na...
yaad rakh... jo kiya appne liye kiya.. nahi hua to koi baat nahi...tujeh achi lagti thi na..bas itna hi kaphi hai usse maaf karne ke liye...
:)

sayad bhool to na pau itni jaldi
phir bhi theek hai,,,

haan haan aur galiya kha liyo phir bhool jana...

jahil kahi ka,...


anyways,.. the other best thing that could have happened to me was..its being said.that...trainee is better thann me...
koi na,..

its part of life...
dont worry u wont get less than 2
:)

fuck off....

somthing bothering me..

i am not any school going child..i knw that..

from the past 2days... somthing is paining inside..

for the first time... kisi ne itni insult kari phir bhi... mann nahi mann raha...


par uske liye kuch bhi..

I gained the faith in destiny by loosing someone special

ya seriously...

nothing more to say...

would like to thank a sweet friend of mine who tried a lot that me and her are together,,
but
it was destiny...
few things i felt bad...

she had given me enough reason ..
then why she called me back and told me one more...
its ok...

i felt little bit insulted when she said..alltht...


bw i should nt have felt bad... you have also done with many..
u have ignored many girls.
and u have also said no..

this time when somebody did directly u should not have felt it bad...
its a part of life...


agreeed....

bt i didnt do in tht sense...

ab chup bhi kar,,.

bahut ho gaya,,,

though she again called in the night... and just every thing is fine na...
though ig it would nt have been she would have been ....xyz..

its fine...


chalo ab tyar hote hai office ke liye..
need to start a new day...

:(

lost

today i could say was the D day..

and to shorten it up i could directly say .. our one sided relationship was crushed like anything...

it could not have been worst.. i could also add to this..

sayad koi aur hota to maine itna sunta bhi nahi..
pata nahi , where i had lost my so call esteem and all that...


she didnt do right .. she said too much.. and that included ... aapka screew dhila hai.. and all that..

if am not mistaken.... it was...

leave it.... or as she says...chuck it..

today i even cannot complain to God about it...

I have decided to go against destiny.. he has never supported me for doing that...

might be i was over confident with my ...

at last i can say.. i had made an item of joke of myself..

on serious note .. i wont be.. doing that again ever....


likin sayad ab to ...these words actually dont matter..
i always think that ....

i wont be doing anything..

its nothing to be nice in this world....

kya farak padta hai..ki koi ladka kaisa hai...
kya khata hai
kya piita hai..

all that matter is which caste he/she is...
all that matter is how much he has at month end..
all that matter is how much attitude u carry..

i lost in every think...
aand the stupidity was .. even i know i lost.. i keep on trying it on again and again..
again and then again,,,
and this does not end over here..


i knw..

leave saurabh...
please leave it...

actually why should i be feeling bad...
as u always say... if you have decided something.. u should stand brave to let the waves hit you back,.,,.

and if you can't , dont even dare to stand

every thing is a mixture

every thing was going smmooth.. i was having a good time.. but i plyed a small prank and it hitted me very badly...

not in a mood to explain waht happens and how it happens..

but i want her and thats i think she doesnt like...

i tried my best,,or should say i am trying my best...

but

kuch nahi... i would keep trying ..kitna bhi bura maane wo...

i knw i have decided against my destiny...


but i would go for it..


"i am behaving like small child with a big crush"
okes theek hai.. bolo.. hai..
ab kya karna hai..

nahi saurabh gussa nahi kare..
u need to make her understand..whats there ..and wht u want..

might be i am hoping agaianst hope... but its fine...

maine kuch nahi kaha usse...
why i would be faking..
do u think ..i am that kind of guy,.

i have no intension to proof u wht kind i am made up of...
but i wont lie to you dear..
ask me anytime ..anything..


chodo...lets see.. whts there for me ..
waise bhi ..
kuch nahi.. leave it...