feeling alone

it started as usual, i started my morning thinking what to do whole day.
nothing gr8 i have in my life to do.

to what to do whole day.
no shopping, i need to save -my new moto in life, because either i can save or can can spend.
both spending and saving is not possible with the amount of salary i am having.

leave it,

seriously telling you, it is my first blog and i have my topics to write but getting vonfuse how to start.
Should i tell you about 25,000/- which i lost and go to bank every saturday to know its status and how i felt on that day.

or should i tell you how i feel you when every day i go by a shared auto to my office.
or should i tell you about the feeling i had when a mother holding his son was crying and asking the auto driver to drive fast.

or how i feel when one of seniors scold me for working at night.

or when i feel what i will do in my future.

seriously but i am feeling i am not the one whole left the collage 2 years back .

today the condition is different.
I get dimotivated very easily.

I am not happy that i am working in a company which i dream of from my first year of my college, but I am said because i am not earning what i am expecting.

I am not happy that i am performing good and enjoy working, but i am sad because i dont know what is my future in my company.

I am not happy that i am not single now but i am sad because i her family is not ready.

I am not happy that have few good friends but i am sad because i have many guys who dont like me in office.


But one think i know, i am alone today.
seating in my room lonely with my laptop and tv.

and no plans for today and tomorrow.
just waiting to happen some thing in life.

Today i just feel to say sorry to the one, who love me the more than i do her.
But i can't stand beside her and say i am with you dear.
and say we can make your love ones understand.
and say please don't leave hope.
and say please take your own time.
and say i love you.

but .......................................

i will come back...........