new,,,

its a long time... and seriously along time when i am to pen down somthing just to take that out...

I dont now what is happening with me...
but something good is happening thats all I know till know..

I got transfered to Noida... I dont like it...the new place.. the new people..
Noida is stupid place..where i felt everybody just want to be at big bazar to buy stuff in GIP..

anyways who the helll cares.. I dont like that...and i am not here to write anything abt bigbazar..

I got a nice roommate... who is gud as an over alll flat mate is consider..
thanks to God.. he made it easy to find..one..

after few days.. I got promopted to ITA..
is a huge change...in life..
to be an ITA in 3 years in TCS is remarkable and seriously it is...

though i still found something was missing in life...
i could nt understand what was actually missing...
i got my landmark which i set on joining the company..

bu what nexxt..

noida was proving to be a good place for me...

it started off well..
people like the work i was delivering...
and i was acknowledged...

but still something was missing...

was something special was there in Noida 2 that i was made to shift to noida..


I dont know..
i keep on wondering why...

my teammate was okes types.. as it was a mixture of gud..ok..and bad..

Neha became a friend of mine...
and introduced me to a friend of her.. Stuti..

and later in the evening give an idea to think abt it..

i was already in love with the sweet smile she carry along with her...
i found the offer quite impressive when they told abt her in detail..

then I keep Neha bugging to make me see her..
but Stuti was not interesed...she want to get away from the situation..
and dont waant to indulge in any..knoe what

Neha and one of her other friends..put a condition for me..
they ask me to loose..4 kg in a month and then they will ask her to meet me..

i did every thing,,
was on sprouts..and fruits totally to meet the target,,
though target was not easy.. but my dedication made it look physically easy.. ;)


finally i was informed that i should try and not let her go like this..

but i could nt still make efforts to start tallking..




the issue was not about courage only... but also about caste...
she was sinha...the only caste my family wwas bothered most..

anyways I went to family and was finally able to convience them..
i still dont knw why i did that but ya her smile made me do so..

but the things were nt going as smooth as they should have been...

she likes me i knw... but thats nt enough for a girl to be in...


anyways..finally the day was there,,, i made it and started the intro...

she was too shy or act to do so ;)
anyways.. with too much pressure we started off...

she was on the way to her hometown...

I dont know where we are heading..buts I was not that much comfertable with her as of now..
or i think so.. she is ignoring me..

what ever be the case.. i just pray ki yeh jaldi clear ho jaye...
mujhe nahi pata wo kya chahti hai..

bt i feel its very thin line .. jab aap kisi ke liye try karte ho ..ya wo soche ki..aap uske piche pade ho..

Anyways,, every body talk about patience.. and i think that the worst thing and i dont have any idea about it,..

just wait and watch, what is coming my way,,
:)

a sweet tweeet

Har taraf shor ussi naam ka hai duniya mein
koi uss ko jo pukaaray, tto pukaaray kaisay
- Javed aktar sahab..

enemy friends can be your friends, so choose either one....

I dont know...
Kuch nahi
bas jo bhi ho raha hai
acha hi ho raha hai..

jo bhi hoga acha hi hoga...



But sayad ab mmaine toot gaya hu...
bahut hass liya ,. bahut ro liya...
ab sayad kuch nahi...

lonely... be practical...

Sach maine ,.. sayad maine kisi ka bahut bura kiya hoga,...
aaj bahut buri tarah feel kar raha hu.. akele pan ka...

kuch to hu.. aur kuch kara diya gaya hu...

mujhe alag ho jana chaiye...
sab se...
mujhe a certain distance bana lena chahiye,,,
maine yeh bhi nahi kar sakta hu...

meri himat nahi hai
i know

maine ek aisa prani hu... jo baar ek hi cheez se hurt hota hu,.. aur phir wohi karta hu...

maine wo hu jo.. kisi dusare ki galati se kya.../
apni galti se bhi nahi seekh paate hai...


anyways....
aaj maine yeh likh raha hu
aur mujhe pata hai.. kal fir se yahi likhuga,,,,,
2 din dhukhi ahuga,,, phir.... same galti karne ke liye tayar dubara,...


aaaj bahut gussa aa raha hai,,,
itna ki sayad maine apne aap ko chot pahucha lu...

aur kyu nahi...

ya to God test kar raha hai... ya... mere kiye ki saaza de raha hai...


sach maine , sach bol raha hu
thak gaya hu,,,.. kasam se... maaf kar do... please......

i dont know what i have done....
but... aise mere saath nahi hona chahiye......
eek galti batao....
ekk pleasee......
apat.... maine uski baat nahi suni break up ke time...
maine jaldi move on kar gaya...

ya maine .... usse ignoroe kar diya...

kya wo aruri nahi tha..
kya wo ... time ki demand nahi thi...
kya ....
please boliyue na... maine koi galat kiya,.,..


lets leave.... it... aaj ... maine akela hu... aur mujhe akele hi sahan karna hai....

likin yadi possible ho to please .. yeh situation jaldi sahi kar do.....

nahi .. aap jo bhi karna meri bhalai ke liye karna...

jo bhi acha ho...
but please bhagwan jaldi karna nahi to ...
bikar jauga,,,,
ab himat jawab de rahi... roz ek hi cheez ke liye apne aap ko saaza deta hu..

trying to be perfect....

tryng ki saurabh jaan bhugh ke galat nahi kar sakta ..

anyways.,,,,

likin aap se maine baad maine yahi boluga.... maine kabhi ko chot nahi di...

but Bhagwan ab maine act nahi kar pauga...
sayad...

ho sake to mujhe maaf kar dena....
ab maine auro ki khusi apne aap ko aur nahi effort maar sakta....

mujhe kisi se koi matlab nahi
lets be practical.. office maine koi dost nahi....
kaha hai na ,... be praxticall.......
practicall.......
Bhagwan ji maine sach maine bahut ...................................

please giv me courage, patience and strength........

and if i have done something wrong on the way please forgive me...

but i have changed,,,,,,
i have chaged a lot...

wo sauabh nahi raha ...jisse apne aap se pyar tha....

its ok to forgive someone...

kabhi yadi kisi pe bahhut gussa aaye ... uski galti maaff karne laayak na ho ... to yaad rakhna... ki u also make mistakes....

and remember a famous dialogue from Paaaa.... moviee..

aap galti karke hurt karte ho..
likin
jo galti karta hai..wo sehan kane wale se jayada hurt hota hai...


kal jo hua... uske ..tumhare best friend se jayada tumhari situation ki galti hai...
and so everything is fine...
and do remember this will pass too...

nice

Everyone wants to be happy , Nobody wants to be in pain... But you can't have a rainbow without any rain

i cant

i cant do it.. iske liye
but sometimes somebody haappnies is more valuable than yours......


sach maine bahut feel hui yeh cheez....
likin sayad ... maine kkhud hi...


same saying still hold gud
"Jo bhi hogha mere ache ke liye hi hoga"